I have written a lot about Nishita and a lot has been spoken about the fable. It is an interesting character that has helped me portray so much of what lay inside me. From my inner insecurities to my stellar fantasies, I have written down so much on this character’s behalf and for this character.Continue reading “Rant 240 : You’re just a refill”
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Rant 214 : The dark rains
As I walked down the street, while it rained, it felt like a consistent spray thrown apart by strong winds. Every drop of the rain felt like a targeted spear that drove right into my back. Not that I wanted to walk down the street in rain, but I just happened to be caught byContinue reading “Rant 214 : The dark rains”
Rant 188: The Confusion
After this long, it has really left me thinking. I am in two minds and let me accept it wholeheartedly I was never this confused ever. “So, we’re going to go?”Nishita asked. “Yes, ofcourse. Why are you even asking?” “Umm, I don’t know. I just feel something is not right”, she replied. I looked atContinue reading “Rant 188: The Confusion”
Rant 181 : The varying sky
Someone recently pointed out that I had not been writing about myself and Nishita, if the story was over or if there was nothing more than came to my mind. She was keen on getting out something from me, that would serve her anxious ears. “Who is Nishita?”, she finally came to point. “Eh? What?”,Continue reading “Rant 181 : The varying sky”
Rant 170 : One Hundred and Eleven
111 days . Its a long time. To realise that a dream was broken. A road lost. A path faded. A frozen mind. But somehow, none of this has happened. The dawn of realization is expensive and rare. Those who are lucky enough, life grants them this eliteness quite early. Somehow this hasn’t happened. TheContinue reading “Rant 170 : One Hundred and Eleven”
Rant 168 : The color strand on the black sail
At times, there is a weird chaos. Like every 3 seconds you get a new topic to write in your brain and while your headsets play a wacky song at loud music, all those ideas vanish within half the time they emerged in. There are new things every 4-5 seconds. They pass like speeding vehiclesContinue reading “Rant 168 : The color strand on the black sail”
Rant 162 : The right-left hand synergy
“Listen, I won’t be able to do it. I am sure I won’t be. Please understand.” I was literally shitting bricks. She forced me in and made me sit there. I was in the worst phase of my chain list of phobias. I cursed the day when I became friends with people like these. WhyContinue reading “Rant 162 : The right-left hand synergy”
Rant 149 : The couple solo trip
“Will you really not come along?” “No”, she said. “Shit! I thought you were joking and you would come down all ready with the bag and join me”, I said in a doomed tone. “Eh”, she said and hugged me tightly. I had never been on a trip out alone in the past two years.Continue reading “Rant 149 : The couple solo trip”
Rant 145 : A terribly good dream -2
This is a continuation of the last post, Rant 145 : A terribly good dream -1 at the below link : https://the11oclockdiary.home.blog/2019/12/18/rant-144-a-terribly-good-dream-1/ I thought for a couple of minutes. Ok, that was it. I turned back. Looked at her. Ah! God! Why! Same Nishita, big eyes, filled to the brim with tears, not a dropContinue reading “Rant 145 : A terribly good dream -2”
Rant 144 : A terribly good dream -1
Some dreams are terrible. Terrible in the sense that they are too good to be true. I mean these dreams don’t leave you with anything but even more pain and desperation. When you know there is nothing to be done now. That there is no possibility of anything happening anywhere and anywhere else in thisContinue reading “Rant 144 : A terribly good dream -1”
Rant 139 : Fickle minded?
“Yea, I will wait outside, you get your work done”, I suggested Sahil I will stay by the car. I really avoid going inside hospital’s emergency wards. I don’t know why. Sahil, my room mate had to get the doctors signatures of one of the prescriptions he had written. Was barely 10 minutes work toContinue reading “Rant 139 : Fickle minded?”
Rant 133 : What if? – 2
It is a continuation of Rant 132 : What if?. Read it at the below link : https://the11oclockdiary.home.blog/2019/12/04/rant-132-what-if/ I received a text message. I reached the phone and checked the message. “You have just been the most beautiful human which has happened to me after my family. I cannot help but keep thinking about youContinue reading “Rant 133 : What if? – 2”
Rant 131 : Sharing the absence
“I really want you to understand this, you are seriously going to hurt your this quarter’s employee performance if you carry on with this attitude of yours. You were on top of our employee cards and suddenly this fall. I cannot ascertain the reason behind this. Its really crazy to see you falling down thisContinue reading “Rant 131 : Sharing the absence”
Rant 127 : Curd rice it is, my Lady!
“There are times when somebody’s absence doesn’t hurt you much, but the unanswered questions hurt you even more.”, the anchor on the famous mental health talkshow said. “Yes, its true and that is the reason why we as professionals are trying to take care of this part by bringing in preventive care than a muchContinue reading “Rant 127 : Curd rice it is, my Lady!”
Rant 126 : The trait of not moving on
I was there in my apartment. Lying on the bed, pillow by my head, a speaker playing my favourite songs. A small cup with warm mustard oil and a small cloth in it. I had asked for an off from work that day as I had around 9 CL’s left with me and it wasContinue reading “Rant 126 : The trait of not moving on”
Rant 122 : Love for the stone
This is a continuation of the previous post Rant 120 : The eternal mirage, whose link is given below. https://the11oclockdiary.home.blog/2019/11/21/rant-120-the-eternal-mirage/ After returning from Badami, Sriramalu’s words were still echoing in my mind. “Maybe sir. Maybe that can happen. But for me, I don’t think about what the rock may or may not give. I seeContinue reading “Rant 122 : Love for the stone”
Rant 121 : “….the dream trip!”
“No I mean, why don’t people try different things, I mean just for the sake of having a different experience? Why not try new things or do things which genuinely make you happy. Why to go for the cliched things every single time? Arey it is his marriage man! I suggested him so many goodContinue reading “Rant 121 : “….the dream trip!””
Rant 119 : The vale of emotions
“uh, it’s already year end, like 5 weeks away! Another year booom. gone!”, Swami kept blabbering to himself, while I was still trying to figure out the perfect concoction for my filter coffee. “I mean, every January 1st, we are like, this year is it! We will do this, this and this! and then slowlyContinue reading “Rant 119 : The vale of emotions”
Rant 116 : The fault in our scars – 4
This post is a continuation of a series of Rant 114 : The fault in our scars – 3, Rant 43 : The fault in our scars – 2 and Rant 42: The fault in our scars – 1. It is recommended you read the series to have a better understanding of the plot. The link to the RantContinue reading “Rant 116 : The fault in our scars – 4”
Rant 114 : The fault in our scars – 3
This post is a continuation of a series of Rant 43 : The fault in our scars – 2 and Rant 42: The fault in our scars – 3. It is recommended you read this to have a better understanding of the plot. The link to the Rant 43 is given below which has aContinue reading “Rant 114 : The fault in our scars – 3”
Rant 44: The one biggest mistake in relationships
I have been thinking over this since quite a long time and I believe I have now run down to the one biggest issues in relationships. Now what I write next is based on the premise that a relationship compromises not just the blood relationships, but the love affairs, normal friendships, platonic relations or evenContinue reading “Rant 44: The one biggest mistake in relationships”
Rant 43 : The fault in our scars – 2
This is a continuation of the previous rant, Rant 42 : The fault in our scars -1. Incase you have not yet read that, read it here, https://the11oclockdiary.home.blog/2019/09/02/rant-the-fault-in-our-scars/ From the last part, I asked her, as I always did, ” Are you okay? Nishita?”“Hmm”“You can share, not a problem” ” No I am fine, seriously!” ” IContinue reading “Rant 43 : The fault in our scars – 2”
Rant 42 : The fault in our scars -1
” I would never forget him for what he did to me”, She said crying vehemently. I sat infront of her, holding her hands between mine. I guess that was all I could do, with what was left between us. “I gave everything that was required for it to sustain, my time, my career, myContinue reading “Rant 42 : The fault in our scars -1”
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