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“Where are you these days man? Haven’t heard from you since some time now?” “Here only Jadav, just a little occupied”, I replied. “Ok, let’s catch up this weekend at the katori. I will call the others too”, he proposed a weekend plan to my horror. “Umm, ok, we can see to it”, I replied hesitatingly. FromContinue reading “Rant 113 : The strong & reliable wall”

“We will first go to the stand-bar and begin our run from there. It will be a run including 110 hurdles – both small and large, easy and difficult ones and then finally there will be a ticket granted to you which will take you to a further round”, the local instructor said. Amongst myContinue reading “Rant 112 : It is all in your mind”

We, humans are very very judgemental about the cover! Yes we are. The moment you would have read the title, you would have made an image about what the thing would be about. That is absolutely normal. We all see guys proposing girls around. No? At schools, at colleges, at workplaces? Most of these girls are ourContinue reading “Rant 111 : Shoot the girl”

Vegetative State. VEGETATIVE STATE. VEGETATIVE STATE.  I am repeating this so that you  get the soul of this rant in place. Vegetative state. What is it? vegetative state, in simple terms, means a person who is awake but shows no signs of awareness or consciousness. Where do you see such a person? In hospitals probablyContinue reading “Rant 110: Vegetative state”

“So, how did it begin, I mean, where did you guys meet? I am sorry, I am asking you this. You tell only if you’re okay with it!”, I asked eagerly with shining eyes. “Umm, there is no such story to it, Amit. But I will try arranging them in a sequence for you. Okay,Continue reading “Rant 109 : Tales of Subbu Sir”

“Does it hurt?”, Anshika asked. “Bonehead, obviously it would! Why would he be in pain then?”, Khyati told. “Guys, can you just stop fighting and help me out here, please”, I pleaded. “I never knew you were such a cry baby, come on it is just a pimple. Don’t try pulling this out else itContinue reading “Rant 108: Let it be.”

What does making time for self mean? Solitude? Locked up in a room? Self-treat and Self-gratitude? umm.. not always! Sometimes self is not a unitary existence. Sometimes, SELF means Someone Extremely Loving and Friendly and then at times you try and make out time for self. Your own self. Your own effing self. It is a dichotomyContinue reading “Rant 107: SELF or self?”

I drove past the traffic signal to evade a pause before it turned red. I was at a 70kmph plus that time. Suddenly a sight caught my attention. A guy, probably in his late 20’s, wearing a pretty decent attire lying down on the side of the street. I drove past him, anyways. That isContinue reading “Rant 106: At level zero.”

Source of the image: https://imgflip.com/memetemplate/79727551/Lonely-Pablo I have been off this blog for 2 days. Plan was to seize any more movements of thoughts on the keyboard till I could resist and here I am. The resistance lasted for approximately 50 hours and I could feel the coin in my throat while I forced myself away fromContinue reading “Rant 105 : Bounce back!”

This is it. I need to look forward to more and more learning in life and make myself better so I could speak better and write even better. Emotions might rub off another 1200 words here, hut probably I might be repeating. So , let’s make this quick. No more rants. No more worrisome linksContinue reading “Rant 104: The Hysterical Dispersal”

“Hey, hi!”, I said as soon as he opened the door. “Hey man, come in”, he welcomed me inside. A single room house with a mattress, an open pantry and an attached toilet. Things quite thrown out and a weird smell of a stagnant air space. I went in. Looked for a place to openContinue reading “Rant 103: Breaking (from the) bad”

“Should I?” “Should I not?” I pulled up the zip of my backpack, took a  sigh and stepped out of the door. At times, when that eerie feeling of uncertainty comes in your way, the only thing which is best to do, is to just keep going. None of us can evade luck. In eitherContinue reading “Rant 102: Go!”

“Understood?”, she patiently asked the kids again. “Yes mam”, they replied in unison. They were abnormally quiet today. No movement whatsoever. Abnormal levels of discipline. She took her register and the student notebooks in her hand and slowly walked out of her class. She walked across the lobby close to the wall. The peon standingContinue reading “Rant 101: Limp”

100 days. 100 posts. 100 memories. 100 healing sessions. 100 pains.100 smiles. 100 hopes.100 reflections.100 fears.100 apologies.100 thankyou’s. 100 fears. 23rd July , 2019 was when it begun. Today, 30th October 2019. Okay! So the day is here. 100. Never even thought this was on the cards. 20 was a tough number when I began.Continue reading “Not the 100th Rant.”

..continuation of Rant 98: Bold floral prints – 1 (https://the11oclockdiary.home.blog/2019/10/28/rant-98-bold-floral-prints-1/) It takes time to get into the feel of the person. Once that person brings you inside their zone. Like THE ZONE. When you talk and when you begin to understand each other .When eyes are enough to make lengthy conversations. It is really aContinue reading “Rant 99: Bold floral prints – 2”

(Not a rant exactly, but I really wanted to write this feeling which I experienced once) “Delhi jaegi?” “Haan”, the man replied. I somehow managed to board  the bus and get a meagre seat at the 6-seater. It was tough. I had 3 bags and now the task was to settle the luggage somewhere. TravellingContinue reading “Rant 98: Bold floral prints – 1”

What changes after you have written your mind for 96 days continuously and you are still writing it out on the 97th day? Is there a subliminal feeling that the 100th post is approaching? Or is it that you start feeling the fatigue of the writing? What happens? What keeps you writing is a differentContinue reading “Rant 97: What did the last 96 rants do to me?”

Do you feel its fun to open a knot, like a comlex knot? Like some 7-8 strings attached together? The very first thing when you see this knot is just cut it and throw it off. I mean it’s way simpler and is practical. But what if you don’t just want to break the knotContinue reading “Rant 96: The cluttered knot”

What does a symbol of heart mean to you? Love? Affection? Very lovely? You know right there are different versions of “heart colors” that define different feelings? We all know right? Till recent, a heart emoticon was a pious value for me. Someone sends me a heart emoji, that meant value for me. Either theContinue reading “Rant 95: The heart loses value”

It was 1996 and we had Gemini circus in our hometown. After much persuasion, my parents agreed to take me to a circus. Elephants and lions were nowhere to be seen. They banned them in the circus, people said. This made me a little sad, but nevertheless we stuck to our seats. After around 45Continue reading “Rant 94: Jo-ker.”

What do you do when you feel down or when you are bogged down by something really frustrating or heartbreaking? I am not talking about the daily fatigues or the frustrations that happen from your office, college or in personal life. But the larger issues. The issues which will act as milestones in your life.Continue reading “Rant 93: Writing it down”

“Shut up, I don’t care what you did; you have not done any magic here. That was work what you did and I seriously don’t care.”, She just blasted at me at 2 in the morning. I stood there. Listening silently. It was a day, rather an evening I’d always desperately want to forget. ThatContinue reading “Rant 92: Being mowed down”

“Hey, waiting for someone?”, the head asked. “No, not really” “Finish up your lunch quick man, we got a call with Andrew at 3” “Yea, sure!”. I was in no mood of making haste. But it really looked weird. I mean, there was barely 3 spoons of curry and a half of chapatti left inContinue reading “Rant 91: The saga of the half chapatti”

“No, no. I am not joking. I would have seriously done that, had my mom not come in miraculously at the right time”, he said. “Woah, woah! Ok! That’s some sick decision making brother. I mean why would you do that? Burning 40 thousand rupees cash? I mean how sick was that! And by theContinue reading “Rant 90: The impulsive actions”

Travelogue and vlogs have emerged as the new strike in the tourism industry. Basically you do an experience feedback of the place in a written or a video media mode. It is an honest and a much much better way of placing reviews of a particular place. Especially the ones not heavily visited. Also, itContinue reading “Rant 89: The faux travelogue”

You must have head it multiple times. I need “my space”. This is “my space”. This is “my time”. What is it? Have we ever, any of us, ever tried to delve deeper into  what this actually means. The problem what we see with these two words is that it demands exclusivity, solitude and isolation.Continue reading “Rant 88: Entering the “my space””

We part. With people, places, animals, memories and so many other things. Parting is like the basic feature of life. If you’ve met something/someone you will have to part. But what happens, when we part? What happens to the memories? Do memories get erased? Do they get suppressed? What are the chances they might springContinue reading “Rant 87: Do we really part?”

Things that burn you give you the biggest boost. The darkest moments of your lives give way to the most beautiful dawns. Such general lines, we’ve been listening since I don’t even remember when. When youre all okay, in a good mood. When you are in those good days of your life these lines areContinue reading “Rant 86: Handling a distressed one!”

This morning I woke up with a strange feeling. A feeling of emptiness. As if everything in my  mind was erased. I even took a second to locate my glass of water. Happens sometimes. Most of our us have lived our lives this way. Setting targets  -achieving them, if yes happy, if not, a littleContinue reading “Rant 85: The Rush Story”

While I am writing this, the blog today, has reached its 2000+ views mark. A mark I’d never thought when I wrote the first one on 23rd July 2019. That I would be writing a #84 was a dream way way beyond perception. I remember someone told me, If you can upload around 5 blogsContinue reading “Rant 84: The 2000+ views and the journey so far”

I was sneaky. I moved in carefully. There were stains of blood everywhere. On the refrigerator, on the dining. My home had turned into a bloodshed cabin and it will be so until I fought my way out. My family was already slain and I was supposed to somehow come out of the house. AsContinue reading “Rant 83: Accept – 1, Repent – 0”

Sleeper class window seats! The only destination you want to end up while you’re travelling in a train in India. Today was a lucky day for travel. Side lower seat, cool breeze, full moon and clear skies. What else would a lone traveller ask for. Sit on the seat and keep looking outside the wholeContinue reading “Rant 82:The plight of the running wires”

Suppose there is a room. A big one. Let’s say, 80 feet by 80 feet. A huge hall, infact. Lets say all the 6 interior faces of the room are painted blue. And right in the center of the room a single leaf door frame is kept. And there are you on one side andContinue reading “Rant 81: The dilemma of the open door.”

“Hey, Listen to me once! Please!”, she cried in desperation. He still hung up the call. It was too much for him, she said. “So, now what?” I asked her. It was an hour since she sat in front of me and narrated all that happened in the last two days. She had gotten alongContinue reading “Rant 80: Move On!”

If I asked you the first thing about being non-expressive, you would certainly point out a person who does not speak or talk readily. We normally term such a trait as being non-expressive. But over the years, I have realised that people can be non-expressive, while people can also be (false) expressive at times. WhyContinue reading “Rant 79: It’s ok to be non-expressive”

Ludo is a game that is known and played and loved by all. When you play a good game of Ludo, you play a life. The same happens with other games too, but here the challenge is a weird one and your luck rather, dominates your mindfulness and regime of the game. It is prettyContinue reading “Rant 78: The joy of being home”

Have you ever felt like losing a war, even without actually battling for it? Have you ever felt like completely collapsing without there being a proper reason for it? Ever felt it was extremely difficult to keep going, even when you had no clue when someone asked you the reason for it? Happens with meContinue reading “Rant 77: Planning for the dawn”

If ever, ever in my life I had to mention the worst feeling and the most dangerous motivation then it will be. “I have done it for so long, how can I desert it no”, or more generally termed as the “will to quit” and “when to quit”. This is by far, I believe, theContinue reading “Rant 76: To do or not to!”

Most people including me, love corners. Home, bus, trains, offices, hostels, classrooms, anywhere for that purpose. Corners are usually the most sought out locations in an enclosed space. In a bus, preferring the last row last seat (near the door), in the train preferring the window seats, in a class the last row last bench,Continue reading “Rant 75: The Cozy Corner Inc.”

Olive oil. Must’ve seen it in shopping malls across India now. Olive oil which was earlier a continental fine dining component till now, has slowly made its way across to our kitchens. Thanks to the European literature showing its fantastic qualities and thanks to all our diet related experts who have grown up reading thoseContinue reading “Rant 74: Why I stand against the Olive oil?”

First, to understand anything about “Hinduism”, the very first point you need to understand that Hinduism started getting identified as a religion only after other religions started invading and dominating the realms of the subcontinent. Else, what terms and conditions and the scriptures and the literature that you see in the name of “Hinduism” areContinue reading “Rant 73: Hindu post death days appear to be an elaborate festival?”

Sometimes, you don’t really have much to express. Sometimes, its just blankness. A blankness which means to cover up so much of the memories you’ve created over the past days or months. I am short of words today, maybe nothing major coming up in my mind. I will just like to state some of myContinue reading “Rant 72: If you read me, you will know me”

What is the physical distance between two immovable bodies A and B? Simple, isn’t it? The shortest distance between them is the shortest straight line that can be drawn between those two points. What is the shortest distance between two cities if you’re on a car? Is it the straight line distance? No. Infact hereContinue reading “Rant 71: The distance between.”

Want to become a patriot in the fastest and simplest way possible? Keep reading..  1. Save Food Before the food is cooked, have a little family discussion as to what everyone wants to eat. So that the family comes to some sort of consensus and less food and resources are wasted. Doesn’t matter a shitContinue reading “Rant 70: 5 hacks to be a patriot”

“Congratulations Sir”, Anant said. “Thanks Ananth, how are you doing?”, I asked “Quite fine sir, just started my preparation last month”, he replied. “Great Ananth, good luck for your preparation!” “Thank you sir, looking up to you for success!” He sounded like a devotee. “Umm, yeah ook! Chalo Bye. Take care and study well!” IContinue reading “Rant 69: “Look up” no more”

This is about a small mirror I had in my childhood in the 2nd room in line after the drawing hall. It was an oval shaped mirror roughly 18 inches long at the major axis and about 10 inches on the minor one. The mirror was framed by a beautiful wooden looking frame, which IContinue reading “Rant 68: The mirror hides”

It was 7 hours since we were travelling and it was absolute chaos where we were headed to. The landmarks that we were informed of were not to be seen anywhere and we where simply driving blank on a road between a barren shrub filled land. It became all the more problematic as only oneContinue reading “Rant 67: The wrong turn”

Finally I took a sigh of relief. It was a narrow escape. My phone nearly survived a death. The official service center suggested me to keep this back in the recycle bin for e-waste and get a coupon in exchange. I was in two minds then, but I chose to keep it back. I hadn’tContinue reading “Rant 66: The second one..”

I opened the door and just came in. It was a tiring day at college. 9 hours of staying in college while you are doing your PG and a student like me, is surely tiring. I came and kept the bag at the designated place and removed the lid glass off to have some water.Continue reading “Rant 65: Do not resist, let it go..”

Some day in 2018, February. Around 7 pm. Phone rings. “Yea, Hi! Tell me” “Hey Amit, can you send me those 7 pictures from your phone? I need to upload them!” “Eh, you’re such a jerk. Can’t even wait for a day. Wait, I will mail you the pics. Give me 20 minutes.” “Sure man!Continue reading “Rant 64: ‘Explore’ or ‘Escape’”

“oi!” “What?” “whats the time?” “11:08, why? Whats the issue now?” “Eh, nothing. Shutup!” “arghh” A couple of minutes later, “aye?” “What?” “Time?” “Are you serious!” “Duh, what’s the time?” “11:11” “ey, ey! Wish time. Close you eyes and make a wish!” She closed my eyes forcefully with her left hand and closed hers tooContinue reading “Rant 63: The p(r)etty superstitions”

I was listening to the track “Let her Go” from the Passenger’s. I had heard it like, some 3 times on repeat now. It was sunny outside and the balcony door was half open to just wash the room with diffused sunlight. The fan was moving slowly and the song was playing on the laptop.Continue reading “Rant 62: “..Everything you touch surely dies..””

“Welcome Sir”, the guard opened the door at the restaurant. “Thanks”. A restaurant staff soon turned up to me asking, “What table order you like Sir?” “A corner table for one”. “Fine Sir, this way”, he guided me to a corner where I could sit peacefully for an hour. Corners are bliss in this chaoticContinue reading “Rant 61: A world of exaggeration –The OMG’s & the Emojis.”

“Should I throw this? I guess the ink in the refill is over”, she said. “Mind you, don’t even touch that thing. I love that pen and that is special to me”, I shouted at my sister. “Eh, what special. This 3 rupee pen! Lol! Papa is going to come and throw this anyway. DoContinue reading “Rant 60 : An idiot’s guide to holding up to the memories”

It was around 7 this evening. I was sitting in my balcony with the radio playing on the phone. It was some good song they played. I don’t remember it though. I was sitting below the door frame, right where my room ends and the balcony starts. Being between 2 different zones always appeals toContinue reading “Rant 59: The severing of the living nail”

Look up! What do you see? Stars? A Moon? Black sky? Do you see the Saturn and the Jupiter close to the moon? Which one of that shines more? It’s difficult but you will be able to make out if you look too closely or maybe with a good lens. Most of us see theContinue reading “Rant 58: The stars in my sky”

Ever saw that dream where you are falling down flat in a whirling spiral downwards? Ever felt a whirlpool pulling you down irrespective of all your efforts of trying to come out? Doesn’t it give chills and goose bumps? It was the first dream of my life that are etched into my mind so perfectlyContinue reading “Rant 57: The whirlpool of life & dreams”

I wish I could just say this and move on.   I wish I could just select a few faces in my life. Put a closure on all the others and move ahead with my work. I wish there were parameters or controls which would help me control my conversations or just block them altogether.Continue reading “Rant 56: I wish I could just say this ..”

I have traveled for more than 2500 km today and there are these days when you just want the travel to get over at a good note. You are tired, sick and bored at the same time. Changing flights and multiple connecting cab travels break your pristine Sunday mood. Sunday (for a person like me)Continue reading “Rant 55: People or just faces ?”

“…I asked her never to repeat it again. She said she would. It was something she had always done and she would continue doing it. I requested her to think again as her actions were hurting me and everything between us was coming to a standstill. Neither of us stepped back, I was adamant onContinue reading “Rant 54 : Ego level zero!”